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Name: Beth
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Dayton
Birthday: 3/21/1986
Interests: My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, God's Word, my church (Jacob's Well Fellowship), playing guitar (6 string Takamine and 12 string Ovation...both acoustic electrics, and now my amazing classical, a spurce top Cordoba), singing, writing songs, C.S. Lewis, A.W. Tozer, coffee, coffee shops, music like Chris Rice, Jeremy Camp, John Mayer
Expertise: whistling, blowing bubbles, and quoting lines from Napoleon Dynamite
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  BethMT321
Member Since:
12/14/2004
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| I've been in the mood for writing these blog things... should I be scared? I posted a note of facebook yesterday. I don't know why, I guess I just felt like it. It was a lot more fun than I anticipated though. It almost makes me want to post another one.... I remember when I used to post like 3 xangas a week...and I would strategically plan the timing of them to get the most comments. I guess the whole thing is, posting only a little bit of the fun. The REAL fun is reading all the comments. So I'm in the library right now..and all the study rooms are taken. This is the first time this has happened and I am outraged! Now, I'm stuck in the back here, and I can't make noise or play my music... Life can be so miserable at times.  Just kidding, I'll get over this...at least I'll try... Oooo, look at this tagging people thing! Xanga is trying to be like facebook!! | | |
| So I looked at my little xanga-keeper-tracker thing today...it's mostly zeros.  I guess I'm in a little bit of a mood to sit down and get some of my thoughts out....this should be interesting... It's crazy how time flies...how many people I've become acquainted with.... how many have gone so far in life ...how many I haven't seen or talked to in so so long. Sometimes it's hard. Sometimes I just want to rewind to those good old days with so and so. But alas, here I am...typing on a computer in the music lab...surrounded by people I don't even know that well. Moving on can be tough, buts it life. So I guess I'm just trying to get over this thing called life. | | |
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Brave
By Nichole Nordeman, Jay Joyce - Prodycer, Brad O'Donnell - Executive Producer
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Yes, I know it's been almost two months since I updated this thing. I guess I just haven't been wanting to get on the computer that much lately. Things have been absolutely wonderful. I go to Sinclair 4 days a week and learn about music, I've been playing a lot of gigs on the weekends, and of course church on Sunday (my favorite day of the week). Time has flying by since school started because I enjoy it so much. Wow, I can't believe it's the end of September already. I sat down this afternoon and read the Bible...and got out my journal and wrote the date down. I just about fell over cause it's the last day of the month! Whoa. So I thought about how I look back and reflect on my life at the end of each year. The useful things I accomplished, the useless things I did. How I did or did not achieve my goals. And it hit me, I should do that at the end of each month. None of us can be perfect, but we should be improving, pressing on, day by day. So here's some questions I asked myself... some of them weren't fun to answer but growing isn't always comfortable. Was I daily in the Word? Did I journal everyday? How has my prayer life been? Did I love my enemies? Did I find opportunities to share His word through conversation? Through my life? Did I allow my fear to hold me back from who He wants me to be? And of course, after answering those questions I find myself in desperate need of a Savior, of Jesus Christ. I'm so broken when I realize that I can't do it on my own. I need Him, I need my church family, accountability. "And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in real knowledge and all discernment,
so that you may approve the things that are excellent, in order to be sincere and blameless until the day of Christ,
having been filled with the fruit of righteousness which comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God."
Philippians 1:9-11 | | |
| In today's society, we seem to have trouble seeing blind obedience as a good, joyful thing. It's more of a necessary chore that we do and then go on. Man, the Israelites must of had quite a bit of blind obedience to do what Moses said, to put their foot in the water. They were trapped, and yelled at him for taking them out there to die. But right as their foot was in the water, the Red Sea parted. On Saturday, I put my foot in the water. I started recording again...not in my room with my dinky little 8-track, but there's a man who goes to my church and he has a studio in his basement. So my dad and I finally went over there this past weekend and started on a song. I couldn't be more excited. Once school starts and Tim Horton's stops, I'll have more time in the evenings, so I'll probably go over there a few nights a week to work on songs. I hope to have a CD with 9 or 10 tracks on it...maybe more.
It's so amazing how the Lord has already started to part the Sea in my life. All of a sudden, I have 9 gigs booked from now to early November, with more in the making. And I have a lot more money than I expected in my music account. I know it's not about the number of shows, or the amount of money I'm making, it's all about God's Word and Him changing lives through my music. But it's sooo encouraging to see the physical effects of His promise and leading.
"Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy,
to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and in all the ages. Amen."
Jude 24-25
WOOOO! If that isn't enough to light your fire, then you wood is waay too wet. I just love those verses...they make me want to sing His praises at the top of my lungs!! And these next verses get make me want to do the same thing:
"Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you righteous ones; and shout for joy, all you who are upright in heart.
Sing for joy in the Lord, O you righteous ones; praise is becoming to the upright.
Give thanks to the Lord with the lyre; sing praises to Him on a harp of ten strings.
Sing to Him a new song; play skillfully with a shout of joy.
For the word of the Lord is upright and all His work is done in faithfulness.
He loves righteouness and justice; the earth is full of the lovingkindness of the Lord.
By the word of the Lord the heavens were made, and by the breath of His mouth all their host.
He gathers the waters of the sea together as a heap; He lays up the deeps in storehouses.
Let all the earth fear the Lord; let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him."
Psalm 32:11-33:8
I wanted to type the entire of chapter of Psalm 33 out, but I was afraid no one would read it all.
**By the way, if you didn't read those verses, take 60 seconds and read them...they are amazing, living, and the only truth in this world soaked with lies.... DO IT!!!** | | |
| I've been hyper today...at least up until about 3:00.
So I've made my decision...I will not be working at Tim Horton's once fall quarter starts. I thought about it...many times. The extra money would be helpful and I enjoy being busy...and I really enjoy the people, but it won't be worth it. Most likely, 16 hours a week would turn into 20 which would turn into 28 and so forth. So I'll probably just tutor at Sinclair a couple days a week. It'd be a good idea since my major is in education anyways.
But the true source of this decision was not my logic. The more I have read God's Word, the more I have realized that my priorities are not in the right order. I have been putting my work above the Lord's work. I was considering searching for another job like waitressing or something...but the Lord basically told me not to look, just quit. So as much as I don't like that answer...I am going to quit. I'm not looking forward to telling my boss...but I'll be giving my notice more than a month in advance. I will miss it...but I know and believe with confident expectation that the Lord has something in store to build His kingdom. If He decides to use me in that process, than I pray that I will be humble and obedient to listen and act.
"Everyone who comes to Me and hears My words and acts on them, I will show you whom he is like:
he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid a foundation on the rock; and when a flood occurred, the torrent burst againist that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built.
But the one who has heard and has not acted accordingly, is like a man who built a house on the ground without any foundation; and the torrent burst againist it and immediately it collapsed, and the ruin of that house was great."
Luke 6:47-49
Wow...what an amazing part of Scripture. Affliction brings out our true character...what have you built your house on? | | |
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